card house dreams.

And then she said she can't believe, genius only comes along in storms of fabled foreign tongues,

I'm a girl of seventeen who has many dreams and is finding her way.

I like
music,
cute things,
dancing,
dreaming,
being inspired,
crafts,
ramen noodles,
pretty smiles,
musicals,
makeup,
anything that sparkles,
tea,
the beach,
and I love this band called panic! at the disco.

This is my small space on the interwebs where I will share my feelings, hopes, and dreams; my way of channeling my thoughts and views of the world.
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Friday, January 29, 2010

Today I was happy.

I lived for the moment, did something productive, did something that scared me, created something, watched my favorite movie with my best friend and loved the people who love me back. No regrets, just pure love and happiness. The way it should be.

I wish every day was like this. I wish at the end of every day I could sit and think to myself today was a good day, I enjoyed living each minute, I wasn't just struggling through anticipating when I get to sleep.
But I've realized over the course of my sixteen years, that everyday can't and won't be like that. There are going to be days where you want to die, days where nothing goes your way and days where you don't even know how to describe what it was. In fact most days can probably be classified under one of those categories. That is why I live for days like today. I wake up every morning with the highest hopes that today will be a good one, and if it's not, well then there's always tomorrow. If it is, then I've got to cherish it and enjoy it and remember what it feels like to be that happy. That's the only way I can bare to get through those days where it's not cherry pie. But I also know that you've got to make things happen if you want them done. As a very wise Miss. Keltie Colleen often says "Put good things into the universe, and the universe will give you good things in return." In other words, if you want to be happy, if you want good things to happen, you've got to give happiness and do good things as well.

This is where my new idea/experiment comes in... I got this idea today, that I will smile, everyday, even when I haven't gotten enough sleep and my hair is crappy and my makeup looks like a dusty cake. I will smile and put forth a happy me. I won't be all bummy and sad because then I won't be putting out happiness into the universe. I will try putting out as much happiness as I can with hopes to receive as much happiness as I can. I think this happiness will not only give me happiness, but will give others happiness too - I mean when you're around happy people, you become happier too don't you? I will also do as many good things, not only for myself but for others. This shall hopefully generate even more happiness! Exciting isn't it? This is my plan. I hope she works :)

Okay so now I'm gonna go on a little tangent and share a excerpt from this wonderful little book Haya lent me. It's called The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. You may have heard of it :P If not, go read it now. Anyways, the part I loved the most in this book was when one of the girls, Tibby, is wondering what happiness is. I've thought the same thing to myself many times, but I really liked her definition.

Maybe happiness didn't have to be about the big, sweeping circumstances, about having everything in your life in place. Maybe it was about stringing together a bunch of small pleasures. Wearing slippers and watching the Miss Universe contest. Eating a brownie with vanilla ice cream. Getting to level seven in Dragon Master and knowing there were twenty levels to go.
Maybe happiness was just a matter of the little upticks - the traffic signal that said "Walk" the second you got there - and the downticks - the itchy tag at the back of your collar - that happened to every person in the course of a day. Maybe everybody had the same allotted measure of happiness within each day.
Maybe it didn't matter if you were a world-famous heartthrob or a painful geek. Maybe it didn't matter if your friend was possibly dying.
Maybe you just got through it. Maybe that was all you could ask for.

I don't have a concrete definition of what happiness is, perhaps no one will ever have one, but I do know what makes me happy and there are too many things to mention.

But this song and this video and these boys make me soooooo happy :)

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3 Comments:

i think i have figure out how to leave comments :)

i like this post, probably my favourite yet by you. its personal, happy and it makes me happy reading it. which is what you want i hope ! :)

this video is my favourite from patd lik honestly i was going to put it up, but you got to it first :). its ok . :) and i stll can believe they broke up, like :( it makesme sad thinking about it.
anywys this is my last comment in a long tme. i will miss you greatly and excited for 2 semester to begin. xoxo Petra

By with love, at January 30, 2010 at 9:32 AM

i fooound it !
ahaha finding this box makes me happy :)
and i already tweeted you that i love this. i love when people are happy it makes other people happy!!

And ur new layout is really awesome, i love the little pictuures beside each title (Y)

<333 Haya

By with love, at January 30, 2010 at 1:12 PM

Petra: I'm gonna miss you! Can't wait until you get back so we can have fun times in Spanish!
And it makes me sad too. When I watch videos like that it sometimes makes me cry because they were all so happy together and now it's not like that and it's sad :( But I'm hoping that something amazing will come out of the split and that both groups will be successful and happy on their own :)

Haya: Haha yay! I've been having some troubles with the new layout, comments being one of them. But I think I've resolved most of them now. I have the follow gadget at the bottom of the page and I've gotten rid of that weird sign-in pop up. I've even got a little chat box set up! I'm really happy with it :)

Thank you and love you both,

xoxo

By Chevalier T., at January 30, 2010 at 3:14 PM