card house dreams.

And then she said she can't believe, genius only comes along in storms of fabled foreign tongues,

I'm a girl of seventeen who has many dreams and is finding her way.

I like
music,
cute things,
dancing,
dreaming,
being inspired,
crafts,
ramen noodles,
pretty smiles,
musicals,
makeup,
anything that sparkles,
tea,
the beach,
and I love this band called panic! at the disco.

This is my small space on the interwebs where I will share my feelings, hopes, and dreams; my way of channeling my thoughts and views of the world.
.

Tripping eyes, and flooded lungs,

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Northern downpour sends its love. ♥

she begs and pleads, he's all she needs and ever wanted.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

So today is the day. The day for lovers. Some people love it, some people hate it. The world around me makes such a big deal about it with movies and chocolates and flowers, but I think I'm indifferent. I woke up this morning not even knowing that today was a special day until I noticed roses everywhere downstairs. Personally, I don't think you should need a special day to show someone you love them, I think that day should be everyday. But I'm not bitter and angry with this day either. Maybe it's because I haven't experienced true heartbreak, or maybe it's because I just don't care.

I think it really depends on who you ask. I read a very angry blog this morning by my idol Keltie Colleen. It contained such raw emotion that I can understand why she'd be upset today. Reading that blog made me remember what happened exactly one year ago tomorrow and it makes me hurt for her. I hate how people can go and ruin "the day of love" for other people. Especially for people who are filled with such love and happiness. It's just not right. I wish this day didn't have to be tainted with such painful memories for her - or anyone else for that matter.

I was having a heart to heart with one of my good friends who I haven't actually seen in years but who I talk to almost every day and she was telling me about this boy. This boy knows how much she likes him and he's known for so long, but yet he continues to chase another girl who won't even look at him. I told my friend she should stop chasing boys who wouldn't chase after her. That she shouldn't let some boy but her as second best; she should want only the best for herself. She told me she knew that, and she knew he would probably never turn around and acknowledge her love, but yet she was willing to wait for it in case it there was a slight chance he might. I personally don't think she's making the right choice, and I told her this, but I know what it's like to want a boy so badly that you're willing to wait until the end of time for him to want you back.

Then there's my friend Haya - yes, I read your blog Haya and loved it :) She's caught up and confused as to whether or not she actually likes these couple of boys. I don't think it's very weird Haya, you've just got so much love in you that there's enough for more than one person!

Then there's me. I'm starting to fall for this boy who seems to be everything I want, but I'm just not sure about it. He's not anything like my type, but he's just so nice and is actually obtainable, unlike so many crushes of mine where they've been some insanely hot guy who doesn't even know my name.

It seems to me like love comes in so many forms. There's crushes, there's obsessions, there's the shy kind of love, there's the thrilling kind of love, there's heartbreaking love, there's motherly love, there's off-limits love and there's the warm, perfect, cuddly love. It all depends on how you want to take it. You can be like me and believe that your knight in shining armor is going to come one day and lift you off your feet, or you can believe that love only causes pain and that true love only exists in Disney movies. But either way, love is going to find you, reckless, crazy and magical, and change things up.

So, Happy Valentines Day to all of you who believe in it, and happy February 14th to all of you who don't. Either way I hope today is one of the best you've had.

xoxo

she knows it's time
to say goodbye
to all that she wanted
for all that she loves.

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By with love, at February 14, 2010 at 5:05 PM

hey chev.
yeah much like you i woke up this morning and i was like, oh jasmine's birthday. valentines day didn't even cross my mind till a little bit later when i was writing my blog.

and yeah nice guys are the best. so far and few between but when you find one and he's actually obtainable its awesome <3

i really like your picture too!

oh oh oh and!! your house was filled with roses!?
that's sooo cute!
lmao no one even acknowledge valentines day at my house. its a little sad but w.e.
anyways love you
Haya
<3

By with love, at February 14, 2010 at 5:05 PM

Haya,
Yeah I guess it's not that big of a deal unless you have someone to really share it with.
Hehe I like that picture too! When I saw it I knew it would be perfect for this entry :)
Yeah my dad brought roses for my mom and I. I think mainly because we never get to see him much :P It was pretty though :)

Love you too!
xoxo

By Chevalier T., at February 14, 2010 at 5:20 PM